50 car pileup in Ohio

most people who live in NYC have never lived anywhere nice. they only ever lived in NYC and some 3rd world shithole that they came from. once you have spent any time, even just one day, in some nice place like Beverly Hills you will have a hard time coming back to NYC and not wondering WTF am i doing here ? Why do i have to look at trash, homeless people and graffiti covered steel storefront curtains instead of flowers and palm trees ?

yep. Chicago is the same way. also LA. probably any inner city of a large metro.

when i came to NYC, riding a car from JFK airport at night and looking at dark empty streets and shuttered storefronts covered with steel curtains with graffiti sprayed over them, and subway tracks overhead i honestly felt like i landed in some kind of dystopia from Terminator movie …

by comparison Kiev was like one giant park, like living in Disneyland …

later when i worked in Manhattan one thing i could never understand is women in business suits always running somewhere … i was like WTF is going on ?

even later i was seeing a shrink and the same women in business suits were also seeing him … for their amphetamine prescriptions … they were literally sitting there in the waiting room with their iPads and happily chat about all the drugs they’re getting …

between businesswomen on adderall always running in high heels, the prostitutes, the homeless, the negroes, the immigrants, guys on steroids, crazy old ladies … you kind of start to take insanity for granted, as if that’s how things are supposed to be.

until you move out into a nice suburb where it’s just normal white families raising happy, well adjusted children and you’re like - so i wasn’t being judgemental - that place really was every bit the shithole it seemed. those people really are completely fucked.

that’s where you’re wrong. every major city is like that at the center. whether it is London or Paris or NY or LA or Chicago etc …

yeah i was really shocked to move to Silicon Valley for a year and realize that there is literally a wildlife refuge right between Google and NASA. i biked there for cardio every single day. in NYC it’s just dumpsters and stench and homeless. it was then that i started to doubt that civilization was really about having the tallest buildings.

eventually i realized that humanity was entirely on the wrong track with urbanization.

when you watch Tarkovsky’s Solaris:

this theme is very strong in the movie. almost the entire message of the movie is that Humanity has gone off the rails and moving in the wrong direction. we don’t need taller buildings. we need a nice quiet house by the lake.

well i never chose to move to NYC - i was brought there by my parents. but i did work with a girl from Delaware who said it was her dream to live in NYC. but it’s different for girls. they are addicted to having guys look at them and in NYC a pretty girl will have 10 guys looking at her at any given time. i suppose for a pretty young girl walking down a NYC street in a short skirt is like watching porn for me. I get instant gratification by fapping and she gets instant validation by seeing guys stare at her.

well that was a while ago, now they can just be on Instagram or TikTok for same effect, without the need to live in a closet sized apartment or have room mates.